Sunday, June 8, 2008

Tallula Belle

Edited* Sorry about the profane hand gesture there!


Ok so I guess I lied in a previous post...I might have a little time to dress her up and take pictures of her. She was just so dang cute at church today, I had to document her cuteness. I'm loving the dark couches we have, I can prop her up in the corner and snap some shots. I then darken up the edges of the picture in photoshop and voila, it looks like a studio shot. Baby Lu is 7 weeks old today and I'm not going to cry about it. Maybe I'll cry next week when she's 8 weeks, but not today. I just hate that she gets bigger and bigger, I don't want this one to grow up. I'm well aware of what happens to them when they turn about 18 months old. It's all down hill from there! I just really LOVE the baby part of my kids lives and that's so short. Since Lu is my last baby I'm having a hard time with all the growing and saying goodbye to the phases a baby goes through. Most of you know that I almost died of a blood clot that shattered into my lungs during my pregnancy. Because of this I have an increased risk of clotting again if I were ever to become pregnant again, also factor in that I've had 4 C-Sections and the doctors said, no more! Even though we really didn't plan to have more, it was incredibly hard to be told you can't have more kids. I struggled with it for my entire pregnancy, I only gained peace with the verdict in the last few weeks of my pregnancy. Still, I struggle with the finality of it. It's given me a greater joy for motherhood, I'm cherishing not just Lu but my other kids as well. I've found a greater patience for them and and a greater appreciation for each one individually. I realize that I'm running out of time with them, my portion of their lives is so brief. I want to give them all the love and counsel I can before they move on. So again a trial becomes a blessing, surprise, surprise!

5 comments:

Sarah J. said...

Great perspective- thanks. Adorable outfit too!

Natalie and Eric said...

Wow! She is getting cutier & cutier. I think that it would be really hard to know that you aren't going to have any more kids. I'm not looking forward to that day.

Amanda said...

She is beautiful! Thanks for the reminder, I too need to slow down and enjoy my kids.

KatSpy said...

Rusty always calls that layout "floating in outer space" Very impressive work. Like I 've said before 'wish you were here' BTW I became OCD with the twilight series. I won't tell Rusty were the referral came from. ;o) I'm afraid to begin The Host

The Mendenhall's said...

Cute pics. Lula looks so dang cute in her outfit and boots. I love it. I didn't know you almost died. That is scary. Thanks for the perspective. It is good for all of us to hear.